Nothing is comparable to family love. Despite having difficulties be it at work or any other matters, just a smile from your dearest mum and dad will just simply make your day so good.

Love my family loads. :)

Terrible thursday. I miss my old school days.
Crazy workload.. amazing work schedules.

im so tired.. :(

A day of criticism and nonsence. An unhappy day in general.
Why am i always falling at the unfair side?
Or am i really that lousy?

Where did the cheerfulness during my part 3 mths went to? Where did all the courage and confidence in me during the last 3 mths went to?

Sometimes is better to know nothing than to find out something new.

Or if not.. be tactful..

Namyohorengekyo.

:(

Its 2.13am in the morning.. surprisingly im still awake when i was so tired and sleepy the entire the day.

No idea, somehow, i cant fall asleep.. not emo-ing though..

But but, perhaps, im too overwhelmed with many many commitments all of a sudden.. So much that i cant even do well in any commitments and work. So whats up with me now.. work, chingay, ITAC, 4-division, family, bf and friends.. Each of them holds equally weightage..

gahzz.. I have always been encouraging pple ard me to be independent and be able to juggle time management well... but sometimes deep down, im wondering if im up to standard.. Im definitely confident of my capability, and with my cheerful nature, i will definitely win over all obstacles.. but sometimes, at a certain point of time. how i wish i can freeze time to allow me to take that few minutes of break..

I noe.. im a fortunate kid.. i can feel it and im definitely appreciative of it.. Im so glad to have my family members supporting 24/7, and my silly boy whom is always there for me.. And my ITAC Comrades..

Balance.. yes.. we need that. He needs that, i need that too.

Probably cant sleep due to high stress level.. So many stuffs that i need to take care of, so much stuffs undone..

I need to chant more.. More wisdom to handle situations ard me..

But overall, im still grateful with what i have now..

Gambette jieying. :)

Alright, i try to get to bed now.. gdnite dudes.

im getting scared.. the day is coming.. really near..

The journey back home from training was terrible, vomitted on the train. But the awesome feeling came when i reached home to see my mum sitting on the sofa at the living room, waiting to serve me a bowl of birdnest. And also coupled with questions like how are your training schedules and how did i do during the training.

And the best part is, she told me i will have birdnest to eat every week because of hectic working schedule..

我是世界上最幸福的女儿! I love mama loads! <3

Been quite sometime since ive last updated.

Anyway, prelims ended two weeks ago.. but i have yet to restart my engine to prepare myself for the main exam. shucks. im still trying and struggling. Its been a busy week.. till ive got no time to meet ***. ehehhe. Busy with gakkai, SYOG trainings, gatherings and dating. Had ME lecture over the weekend and FM lecture today. Its so damn boring. DD met me after lecture and we headed to CWP to have our sakae dinner. This was what we have eaten, which makes me still so full now. LOOK.

     

The one on the left is DD's bento, and the one on the right is MINE.. 5 courses plus a bowl of rice..

There are a couple of things i wanna accomplish:
1) Finish up my study plan
2) Learn driving, at least the theory part
3) To pick up teaching piano
4) In the long run: to complete my piano diploma.
5) Try to slp earlier

During the weekend, i met up with the nehnehkiaz despite of my busy schedule! I love going out and bitching ard with them. YAY.

Had a bad bad start for the day.. Slpy and sian...AHH!! Din slp well last night becoz the thought of going back _______ makes me feel so sian till i cant fall aslp... so had a nice chat with janelle till 2am. As a result, i overslept and was late.

The entire morning, the environment was filled with blurness and messyness due to the incapabilty and irresponsibility of some pple. I only understand and get used to the operation during noon. I really despise pple who create crappy work, make a nuisance out of themselves and do whatever they want just to have fun without other people's consideration. Produce nonsensical work and just leave like that when they cant take the pressure.. then those who are taking over these idiots' jobs will suffer like mad.. They can never move forward, but move backwards to clear all the shit before they can start afresh. How unfair is this! I hope these pple will get their retributions when they step into the real world and start their perm jobs. Seriously, they need to step out of their comfort zone and grow up!

Anyway after one morning of bad mood, i have made up my mind and i definitely wud not change my decision. Whatever causes it takes, i will do it. I will not waste my time and effort on such pple anymore!

Anyway, DD picked me up frm work and we left for town. Shopping and eating therapy really work!! My mood is so much better now!! DD is so nice.. he accompanied me to shop even though he had so much projects and reports to do... <3<3

My cravings for shopping hasnt subside yet.. anyone wants to shop? :):):)

我有生病了。哎！

yup, my flu came back again.. seem like i din fully recovered from my previous flu.. so i went to see the doctor right after class today.. and it cost me 36 bucks. AHH! So becoz of my flu, im taking leave tmr...

Anyway, happy CNY my dear friends! Mine was just alright. Chu xi was plain boring... watched my hai pai tian xin for the entire night. Chu yi cum valentines was better. Bai nian in the morning and afternoon, caught a late night movie with dearest at yishun GV. Chu er was fun too.. Went dear's hse to bai nian and he came my hse too. Then went to aunt's hse to bai nian till very late.. Chu san was plain bored too. Studied at RP the whole day due to my guilt for the last three days..

I guess i need a good rest. Time for medicine and TV. Take care pple! :)

Im seriously over stretched. Sch stuffs are really pilling.. tutorials, preparation for prelims.. Work stuffs are really terrible recently.. loads of work thrown to me due to my incompetent partner... House stuffs.. lots of housework to do basically.. due to my mum's back injury.. nobody is helping except me...

Im down with a bad flu.. need to see the doctor tmr.. Felt real terrible these two days.. Nobody in the house care about my flu.. i was summoned to give support and help 24/7, even when im asleep.. Slept at 10.30pm ytd coz i was real sick.. but got woken up my mum at 11.15pm to help her do some handicraft till 12 plus am.. then this morning woke up early to do all the housework frm 9.30am to 3pm.. Almost died coz i wasnt feeling well at all. After that, went out with DD and peiling.. supposed to celebrate sandy's bdae, but smth cropped up last min, so cant celebrate... Despite of my flu, felt happy afterall.. Shopping therapy really helps! Bought 2 tops, 1 dress, 1 shirt-short one piece and a hairband for cny.. i should stop buying liao... even though i feel like one more 1 piece shirt short thingie.. STOPP. Just realised din buy any shoes yet.. hhehehe.

Im going to see the doctor tmr.. coz its been 2 days since my flu started.. and no sign of recovery..

DD's 23rd bday just past! Bought him a braun buffel wallet and treat him dinner at liang court. He is using my pretty wallet now! :):)

I need moreeee resttt! Dun stress me pple!